All tagged Arthritis
“It honestly never occurred to me that I’d go to bed sick one night and wake up ill for the rest of my life.”
It’s easy to speak from the other side of struggle, but it’s really tough to speak from the middle of it.
Being alone in a moment of struggle and feeling all of your emotions can get really heavy, all you can do sometimes is sit in your emotions, soak them in, and bathe in your vulnerability.
Pain comes in all forms. The small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain that we live with everyday. Then there is the kind of pain you just can't ignore, a level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else, makes the rest of your world fade away until all we can think about is how much we hurt, how we manage our pain is up to us. We anesthetize, ride it out, embrace it, ignore it, and for some of us the best way to manage pain is to just push through it. That's what most of us are doing, pushing through it. But let's advocate for ourselves and find someone to help us through it so we're not alone in this.
It's not simple to say that most days I don't recognize me. This is not what I asked for, this disease, but sometimes life just slips in through a back door and carves out a person who isn't anything like you remember. If I'm honest, I would give it all back for a chance to start over and re-write my story for the girl that I once knew.
I often talk about being a spoonie and I've had people ask me what it is. It is actually something those of us with a chronic illness call The Spoon Theory.
