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finding gratitude in family and friends journey to understand my disease.

Living with a chronic disease, it can be hard some days to find something to be Thankful for. Some days it feels like friends are slowly drifting away as I stayed curled up in my bed. The hardest part about living with a chronic disease is not the pain, you learn to live with the pain. It's explaining what you're going through to people who don't understand. It's taken friends and family seeing me at my worst to truly understand what is happening to me. They may not understand it, and their reactions may not be what those of us with a chronic illness expect, but we have to remember they are trying their hardest to understand that they’ve never experienced.

simple love.

There is heartbreak, sadness and loneliness of course, but I want to enjoy these times. I need to enjoy these times. I want to be in love. Beautiful love. Crazy fucking love. The kind of love that deserves children, that deserves to be felt and caught up in. I want that kind of love.

why I chose to forgive.

I deserve the kind of breathlessness that comes from a first kiss or facing a fear, not the kind where I get left behind. I don’t want to keep waiting—waiting for my phone to beep and hope to see your name on it; waiting for you to call and take back all the words you didn't say when we parted. I deserve to walk my path without looking back to see if you are following me in every step.

Hello 2017.

I’ve learned that life is kind of like a party. You invite a lot of people, some leave early, some stay all night, some laugh with you, some laugh at you, and some show up late. But in the end, after the fun, there are a few who stay to help you clean up the mess. And most of the time they aren’t event the ones who made the mess. These are the people that matter the most.