All in Relationships
There is heartbreak, sadness and loneliness of course, but I want to enjoy these times. I need to enjoy these times. I want to be in love. Beautiful love. Crazy fucking love. The kind of love that deserves children, that deserves to be felt and caught up in. I want that kind of love.
I deserve the kind of breathlessness that comes from a first kiss or facing a fear, not the kind where I get left behind. I don’t want to keep waiting—waiting for my phone to beep and hope to see your name on it; waiting for you to call and take back all the words you didn't say when we parted. I deserve to walk my path without looking back to see if you are following me in every step.
After I graduated from college I moved to Seattle. I left my high school friends in my hometown and packed up and moved three hours north to Seattle with some friends from college. After 8 years away the hardest thing I've dealt with is learning how to maintain relationships long distance. Friends have changed, I have changed, they've gotten married, had kids, but deep down I know that hasn't changed how I feel about them or our relationships. Coming to terms with the fact that we are both on different paths in life was hard, really hard. I still struggle with it daily. I have to go back to the foundation of our relationship, we've simply moved on a little, made new friends, forged new relationships, but our relationship is still there just maybe a different shade.
